hello, it’s me! i wish i had a valid reason for why i’ve been gone for what feels like forever, but i don’t. lately, i just haven’t had the desire to share recipes. every time i sit to write a blog post, i don’t. my life has actually felt like nothingness lately. i don’t watch movies or tv shows. the only hobbies i have are baking, walking outside, spending time with my family, and facetiming my friends. but, life still feels stagnant in so many ways. and i guess, the stagnant experience is one of peace too? there’s nothing major happening right now. i stay at home, spend moments doing something and then a new day comes.
we’re still in a global pandemic, but that news doesn’t seem new… 9 months and we’re still here. and, i’ve seen a lot of growth in myself through this time. and last month, i turned another year older – 21-years-old isn’t old. but this blog captures my life from when i was 14-years-old, which means there is 7-years of content, tracking my bad writing, poor pictures, and crazy life.
i’m so proud of that. to have a space that shows who i am, to have a space that charts my identity, ideas, and growth is something exciting. and my life is just continuing to move forward. it’s crazy.
but, here is my 2020 reflection: p a u s e. yes, that’s what i learned. for so long and so many years, i’ve chased and ran and attempted to find tangible success in my life. and i don’t regret working hard for a second. i’m so content with how my efforts have helped me land, alhamdullilah. but within this, i have realized i don’t always have direct control of the tangible success. over the years, i’ve realized tangible success is equal parts opportunity and equal parts hard work. you can work incredibly hard, but that hard work doesn’t mean, the opportunities you desire will manifest themselves. and that’s fine. because as long as you tried, as long as you put in your best efforts, you truly did the best. your best shouldn’t be compared to his best or her best or their best – you are your own person.
and i guess within this discussion of tangible success, i’ve learned that i do, however, have control over the intangible success in my life. i can control how much i invest in the relationships around me. i can control how much i spend time with my family. i can control what i do in my every day life and how those activities affect my happiness. i mean, sure, life is unpredictable and i won’t always be happy, but the intangible aspects of life are more approachable because they’re internal within ourselves.
and so, 2020 provided me with an avenue to stop seeking so much tangible success and instead strive for intangible success. i’m really trying to move to a mindset where i don’t let the external environment affect me internally. i want to be content, even if there’s lots of chaos around me. i want to be at peace, even if i feel like i’m sitting in turmoil. i keep reminding myself that instead freaking out or fretting over every detail of life, i need to trust the process. i need to trust myself. i need to understand that as long as i’m trying my best, i’m succeeding, even if my best doesn’t yield the maximum result, it doesn’t matter. maximum doesn’t mean best. maximum is what society has told us we should produce. but we should produce our best. our best is inherently our maximum.
anyway, what has kept me sane and happy in this wild year we call 2020? well, baking, of course. i wanted to share a recipe i baked way back in september… i know. i can’t believe it has taken this long, but look at it – i hope it was worth the wait.
cheers to the new years – i hope 2021 is the year of success, both tangible and intangible. ❤
Tie Dye Cake
YIELD: 12 servings PREP TIME: 20 minutes
COOKING TIME: 50 to 60 minutes TOTAL TIME: 1 hour 20 minutes
- 1-3/4 cups cake flour
- 3/4 teaspoon baking powder
- 1/4 teaspoon baking soda
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- 1/2 unsalted butter, softened
- 1 cup sugar
- 3 egg whites, room temperature
- 2 teaspoons vanilla extract
- 1/2 cup sour cream, room temperature
- 1/2 cup milk, room temperature
- 2 food coloring (choice of color)
- Preheat oven to 350 degrees and line 6 inch cake pans (either with parchment paper or grease well will flour and cooking spray)
- Whisk cake flour, baking powder, baking soda, and salt in a large bowl
- In another bowl, cream butter until smooth and then add sugar. Add in the egg whites and vanilla. Next, add in the sour cream. Slowly add in the dry ingredients and add milk until a batter forms (do not over mix).
- Divide batter in two separate bowls and color each bowl with desired food coloring.
- Next you need to spoon take spoonfuls of the batter and fill up the cake pans. For example, take one spoonful of color 1 and then alternate and take one spoonful of color 2 until the cake pan is full. Do this for both cake pans. Refer to the image above as a guide
- Bake cake for 18 to 21 minutes. Once done allow to cool on rack
- Once the cake is cooled completely, you can assemble and decorate your cake
- Recipes from Sally’s Baking Addiction. Here’s the original recipe; it contains great information and beautiful images.
- For the best results, I recommend making sure all of your ingredients are at room temperature
- Store leftover cake at room temperature for 2-3 days or in the fridge