Summer Things (being vulnerable & other stuff)

Hello, friends.

How have you been?

It has been a long time since my blog has been consistent. I remember when I started college, I made a promise to myself that I would not let my blog move to the back burner as I became fully immersed in my college experience.

However, put simply, I failed.

As soon as I started college, this little corner of the web slowly began to whiter away. I had papers to write, chapters to read, and exams to complete. My blog became this “once in a while” hobby.

It’s truly sad. However, as my summer break comes to an end, I have realized my passion and love for this site will never diminish.

When someone asks me: “what are you proud of?”

The first thing that comes to my mind is this. This website. This website that I built, I began, I developed, I wrote on, I curated, I nurtured — I love.

I am currently inundated with the recruitment life. I fill out an internship application, prepare for an interview, update my resume, and write a cover letter — and each time I feel utterly defeated.

I don’t know why, but the act of applying for something is one of the most vulnerable actions one can do. You apply to something — fully knowing that you may face rejection.

I am the worst at accepting rejection, but as I submit another application, I remind myself that I am worthy. I am qualified. I am a positive contribution to any work environment.

Internalizing these words is the hardest.

Yesterday when I was feeling especially overwhelmed, I went to the blog archives and read this post from 2015 (almost 4 years ago) and I laughed. My life felt out of control back then — and it feels out of control right now as well.

I guess that’s just a constant in life. You will always feel lost. You will always feel confused. It doesn’t matter that I was 16 then and 19 now. I still don’t have all of the answers.

And that’s fine. More than fine.

As I start my 3rd year of college (!!!), I am incredibly excited. Excited to learn, to grow, to gain new experiences — and to bake. Yes, bake. Baking makes me the happiest; this website makes me the happiest.

I have a recipe up my sleeve, and can’t wait to cap summer with one more sweet treat.

Until then, thank you for reading.

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