How have you been?
It has been a long time since my blog has been consistent. I remember when I started college, I made a promise to myself that I would not let my blog move to the back burner as I became fully immersed in my college experience.
However, put simply, I failed.
As soon as I started college, this little corner of the web slowly began to whiter away. I had papers to write, chapters to read, and exams to complete. My blog became this “once in a while” hobby.
It’s truly sad. However, as my summer break comes to an end, I have realized my passion and love for this site will never diminish.
When someone asks me: “what are you proud of?”
The first thing that comes to my mind is this. This website. This website that I built, I began, I developed, I wrote on, I curated, I nurtured — I love.
I am currently inundated with the recruitment life. I fill out an internship application, prepare for an interview, update my resume, and write a cover letter — and each time I feel utterly defeated.
I don’t know why, but the act of applying for something is one of the most vulnerable actions one can do. You apply to something — fully knowing that you may face rejection.
I am the worst at accepting rejection, but as I submit another application, I remind myself that I am worthy. I am qualified. I am a positive contribution to any work environment.
Internalizing these words is the hardest.
Yesterday when I was feeling especially overwhelmed, I went to the blog archives and read this post from 2015 (almost 4 years ago) and I laughed. My life felt out of control back then — and it feels out of control right now as well.
I guess that’s just a constant in life. You will always feel lost. You will always feel confused. It doesn’t matter that I was 16 then and 19 now. I still don’t have all of the answers.
And that’s fine. More than fine.
As I start my 3rd year of college (!!!), I am incredibly excited. Excited to learn, to grow, to gain new experiences — and to bake. Yes, bake. Baking makes me the happiest; this website makes me the happiest.
I have a recipe up my sleeve, and can’t wait to cap summer with one more sweet treat.
Until then, thank you for reading.