It’s over. What?
I just finished my first-year of college. What an experience; there have been ups and downs, happiness and sadness, and laughter and silence. I have learned so much — about the world, myself, my faith, etc.
My first-year at the University of Texas has been one of the most confusing, draining, yet memorable, transforming years of my life thus far. Alhamdulillah (all praise is due to God alone).
Navigating through a new environment is challenging. I want to start by thanking the people in my life who have contributed to my UT experience so far. If you’re reading this, you probably care enough about what I have to say. You are the reason my first-year at UT has been memorable. Whether we have talked for one minute or one hour, your presence in my life this year has drastically changed the route of my college experience. One thing I have learned and am continuing to learn is that people do matter. As a person who often spends her time in her apartment, I cannot emphasize enough how important relationships are. Although I am still struggling to balance my social life and academic schedule, I want to thank you for being in my life. For reading what I have to say. For answering my excessive-emoji text messages. For being in my life in some capacity. I know I continue to fail to attend social gathering, make plans, or be present, but I am working on it.
Through this experience, I have also been reminded how truly incredible my family is. My parents answered my 1 hour phone calls, sent me random supportive text messages, gave me advice, and did so much more. I have really begun to reflect on all the things they have done for me — and continue to do for me with out asking for appreciation. My brother has also significantly contributed to my first-year experience — he listens to my complaints, buys me ice cream, and continues to be so supportive. Additionally, my Aunt, an Austin native, has been so helpful — she has given me food, checked up on me, and has been so caring. My family has helped me succeed here. I love them.
Academically college has not been terrible. Although I may have made it terrible. I am that student who reads the chapter three times (and then one more time) for safety, worries about the simplest assignment, and isolates herself for a week to study for one exam. My goal for next year is to be more confident in my abilities. I know that reading a chapter four times is not efficient; I just can’t help it.
In terms of health, college has made me healthier physically. What? Yes. You read that correctly. I have become more conscious about what I put into my body. I also started working out this semester. I don’t love it, but the clothes are comfy. 🙂 Mentally I do feel the college drain. I get overwhelmed and upset, but overall I am in a good place. I make sure to practice self-care, whether that means calling my parents, eating ice cream, or watching The Office for the thousandth time. Your health is paramount, people.
What a year. I am not the same person I was before college began. I have become more aware of who I was, who I am, and who I want to become. I am hopeful that my second-year of college will be more fun. I want to look back on these years with excitement, and I know I have the power to create that. I just need to become more confident, strong, and openminded. Insha’Allah (God Willing) I will continue to learn and to grow.
Why do I care about my education so much?
Education is one of the most incredible opportunities someone can receive. Learning, exploring, and changing (and so much more) are all embedded into education. I have so many opportunities other people do not have — and may never have. It is my responsibility to take advantage of the blessings in my life. If I don’t work hard today, what excuse do I have? (Take care of yourself, of course, but recognize the power your education can engender.) I am not perfect, but I remind myself this every time I want to throw my book out the window. My educational opportunity is a privilege, not a right.
Until next time.
P.S. Get ready for some recipes, internship survival posts, world vomit, etc. It’s summer time and I have lots of plans for the blog! 😀